I was driving home the other day. It was cloudy. A few raindrops were scattered across my windshield. The scene seemed to really manifest itself for gloomy inner thoughts. I found myself dwelling on my hurt feelings.
I was just like, “woah.” I need to get a grip here. I am a sensitive person and that’s okay. But my sensitivity is no excuse to not forgive.
I prayed right then and there. I asked the Lord to help me forgive. “70 x 7” as the Bible says. I’m really trying to work on this. On softening my heart towards people who continuously hurt my feelings. On not holding a grudge. Unforgiveness ultimately hurts me.
Unforgiveness is kinda sneaky. You don’t realize it sometimes. I remember one day thinking about the concept of forgiveness. I tried to think of a list of people that I struggled with forgiving. No one came to mind. So I was like, “okay, cool.” And went along my merry way. Then, that person says something rude, and ALL the hurtful things they’ve done rush back, and the bitterness makes its entry. I realized I struggled with forgiveness more than I realize. In fact, there are a few people that I’m really trying to forgive. God is working on that with me.
People are going to hurt our feelings. People will be mean. Cold. Harsh. Selfish. If we let people’s actions create bitterness and grudges, we are going to be miserable people.
To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you. – C. S. Lewis
I think the above quote kind of says it all. The greater the offense, the harder it is to forgive. But if God can forgive us, surely we can forgive each other.
I urge you to bring your unforgiveness straight to the Lord. He will really help you. He’ll help reveal unforgiveness you might not even realize you have. He’s helping me and I’m already feeling lighter and more joyful! I want to be a person who is oozing with love and kindness and forgiveness. And God is helping me become that person.